Timeless|Ope & Jesus

Lost:

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I entered the new year with fear. I wanted to stay in that place between 2017 and 2018 because when I looked back I saw burnt ashes and when I looked forward I could not even create a future for myself. Everything that was connected to me was thrown into a bowl and stirred up into a concoction that looked unappealing. …You know I stared so long at who I was, who I had become, where I could possibly go and if I am to be honest those moments of being still were probably the best things I could have done for myself. There are times where life is actually a mess .( I am not even going to say that it seems like a mess or that its just my perspective. ) It is such a mess that whatever direction you think to go in will leave you mentally unstable and incapable of making sound decisions. The only thing that I will say for anyone who is close to edge (suicide, about to make some VERY bad decisions) is DO NOT JUMP.

He Spoke:

Philippians 3:13-14 (KJV)
13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

I Spoke Back:

“I think about the goodness of the Lord and drown myself in that. I do not drown myself in the goodness of the Lord that has been shown in other peoples lives, but rather in that which I have seen in my own. And I look at Christ with clarity comparing his word to the witness within me and choosing to walk away from everything that doesn’t look like who he has shown himself to me to be. I choose to trust in Jesus Christ. I choose to love him personally. This is what I choose to do. I choose to do it not so that I look like a good child or a good christian but because I know that the moment I let go of him I am finished. I choose Jesus. That’s my choice.”

The Wilderness:

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“This is my wilderness and in this wilderness there are miracles. It never dawned on me that the Israelite saw so many miracles while passing through the wilderness. It wasn’t until I read about how the miracles ceased that I realized that the wilderness was not a place of darkness, but a breeding ground for God’s power. “

Joshua 5:12
“And the manna ceased on the morrow after they had eaten of the old corn of the land; neither had the children of Israel manna any more; but they did eat of the fruit of the land of Canaan that year”

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I am usually optimistic about new years but this year I was not interested whatsoever. I was in a very dangerous place spiritually, but his grace saves. I do not care what year it is right now I just know that I want to enjoy this time that I am alive because I do not know how long I’ll live and I don’t want to live it in darkness.

May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all. 2 Corinthians 13:14

Morning Lessons With Ope

me : if a prophet says something and it doesn’t come to pass then that means they are a liar.

Inspiration of the Holy Spirit: that is not true. How many times have you told yourself that you will clean your room and you didn’t. Are you a liar?

me : that is true.

Inspiration of the Holy Spirit: Sometimes a prophecy comes out but if the person is not willing to walk in obedience to that then it will not come to pass. God wants you to participate in the works that he will do. It is called being a team. God could do everything by himself but has employed man to participate in his work so that all can be rewarded. You remember the donkey that Jesus road into Jerusalem before he was crucified? That donkey was set aside for that work, but what if that donkey said I don’t want partake and just walked away. How could the donkey have participated? Will Jesus now be dragging the donkey in the midst of the people? How would that look? You can’t be forced to do anything but you can choose to make a decision and bare the consequences of that decision(whether good or bad). Now I know that because of past pain you have declared within yourself that you will not move forward but when you choose to stand in quick sand you will sink. So are you ready to work because if you are there is still so much more that I have for you….and you need not worry about what has been destroyed because the process of building a house begins with digging up the foundation.

me: I am ready to work. *Grabs hammer and cross*

 

The Prophecy:

Zechariah 9:9King James Version (KJV)
9 Rejoice greatly, O daughter of Zion; shout, O daughter of Jerusalem: behold, thy King cometh unto thee: he is just, and having salvation; lowly, and riding upon an ass, and upon a colt the foal of an ass.

 

The Fulfillment of the Prophecy:

John 12:14-15

14 And Jesus, when he had found a young ass, sat thereon; as it is written, 15 Fear not, daughter of Sion: behold, thy King cometh, sitting on an ass’s colt.

 

 

Walk where you are promised eternity and not comfort. Walk where you are promised a life that gives you internal joy regardless of where you may have come from and regardless what people say. At the end of the day if you are obedient and walk in accordance with God’s plans for your life you to will be a partaker in a glorious event

 

Mark 11:1–11
The Triumphal Entry

Now when they drew near to Jerusalem, to Bethphage and Bethany, at the Mount of Olives, Jesus 1 sent two of his disciples 2 and said to them, “Go into the village in front of you, and immediately as you enter it you will find a colt tied, on which no one has ever sat. Untie it and bring it. 3 If anyone says to you, ‘Why are you doing this?’ say, ‘The Lord has need of it and will send it back here immediately.’ ” 4 And they went away and found a colt tied at a door outside in the street, and they untied it. 5 And some of those standing there said to them, “What are you doing, untying the colt?” 6 And they told them what Jesus had said, and they let them go. 7 And they brought the colt to Jesus and threw their cloaks on it, and he sat on it. 8 And many spread their cloaks on the road, and others spread leafy branches that they had cut from the fields. 9 And those who went before and those who followed were shouting, o“Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord! 10 Blessed is the coming kingdom of our father David! Hosanna in the highest!”11 And he entered Jerusalem and went into the temple. And when he had looked around at everything, as it was already late, he went out to Bethany with the twelve.

 

While preparing for my day I had this dialogue bouncing around in my head. It came so quick and yet it is dissolved a dilemma I had.  This post is simple and so short, but it really dug a hole in me and took out a really destructive thought process. Praying the Holy Spirit ministers to you as well. Stay Obedient!

Lessons from physical pain| Jesus & Ope

The pain radiated through my leg and I just sat there trying to find the position that hurt less. I called out for help but found I was ignored by passersbyers and other times there was just no one around. Some heard of my discomfort and stayed put while others assisted me in every possible way. I cried they laughed. I cried they laughed and then assisted me. In that very moment I came to understand a few things :

  1. You can never know the intensity of another individual’s pain until you have had first hand experience. I know this is said so much, but it is the truth.
  2. When you see a person suffering from a physical disability by all means help them and go the extra mile for them. You do not know what it is like to drag yourself to the toilet because your legs can’t function. You do not know the difficulty it takes to chop food up or climb stairs when your body was not made to do those task. You do not know the difficulty in trying to remember what you learned when your mind can not retain information.
  3. When you can’t understand others disabilities one day you may find yourself in a situation where you temporarily or permanently find yourself in their shoes. So be kind. Be very kind. Life makes drastic changes.
  4. The pain you feel may be minor to the pain that comes as a result of trying to solve an issue that is meant to humble you.
  5. Recognize the human that is you. Sometimes you may feel that you are indestructible or that natural substances can not have an affect on you and so you treat your life carelessly never attempting to get things under control.

1 Peter 1:24New International Version (NIV)

24 For,

“All people are like grass,
and all their glory is like the flowers of the field;
the grass withers and the flowers fall,

You only have one life to live. Do not treat it carelessly. If you avoid some paths you may save yourself many troubles.

  1. Remember no matter how great the ailment do not curse God for your creation, do not curse him for your pain, do not curse him because it seems you are the only one suffering and do not degrade yourself for not being healthy.
  2. Regardless of who is at fault for your condition-whether it is yourself, your parents, a friend, an ex, a stranger, whoever….Cast all blame aside and remember that ALL things not some things work out for your good. ALL THINGS WORK OUT FOR YOUR GOOD.

Romans 8:28King James Version (KJV)

28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Dialogue on Glowing In The Dark|Jesus & Ope

Sometimes when things are going bad we try to salvage the remains. We try and coax God with our tears and cries of distress to come and help us. If God isn’t in our vocabulary then we try and find a means to cope with the pain. We beg him(or the universe or the worldor whatever you believe in) to hear us and meanwhile our heart breaks with each passing day that we do not get an answer immediately. Some of us take this silence and say that God and Jesus are not real because he could not possibly save us or our life situations. Those who remain believing may adopt a mindset where we know he exist but can not accept that he is all powerful. I am learning that being broken is not meant to be an easy process. I use to go through this life thinking that a series of events would either add up to one outcome. I was creating my own recipe for how life should work and to be quite frank life felt like it was a game I could control. When I lost one life I had nine left and if I lost all of them I could reset the entire game and start over with nine more lives. I am faced with this bitter truth that if I must suffer in this world because of Christ the suffering will be real. There will be opportunities and people of which I cherish the most that will leave, die, disappoint and break me down into pieces. I will look at circumstances and watch them crumble before my very eyes and that is the only time I will discover that I am helpless. This helplessness opens me up to a level of humilty that I can not achieve when my game plan is working.

You know I have slept in my brokeness wondering every single day where to go and how to start anew. I have ruminated over my past mistakes and have had flashbacks of all the terrible things I’ve done while trying to put the pieces back together. And when I though things could not get worse I have spent so much time being taunted by thoughts that discredited my worth and made me question how God could love someone like me. And to it all I have decided to proclaim that Jesus died on the cross for my sins and I too must carry my own cross with him. If people will look at me crucify him he will one day look at me and use me to glorify his name. I love how apostle paul said to glory in weaknesses and weaknesses alone. Those weaknesses then are used to glorify the name of God because all the areas of lack are filled with his strength.

I have a lot of bad situations but I declare that none of them are bad because I have this beautiful man named Jesus and he is better then any terrible situation I will every encounter. An inkling of doubt may grow in my heart. My mind may flash back to that scary situation and I will open my lips
nd say Hossanah to the Son of David- Jesus Christ the Lord of Lord.

I looked at this scripture from John 11 :8-10 when Lazarus had died:

“8His disciples say unto him, Master, the Jews of late sought to stone thee; and goest thou thither again? 9Jesus answered, Are there not twelve hours in the day? If any man walk in the day, he stumbleth not, because he seeth the light of this world. 10But if a man walk in the night, he stumbleth, because there is no light in him.”

How do you approach an environment or situation that is dead and proceed to bring it back to life?

To be honest when I read this I was like God you have come again with your parables. The thing was I could understand the question but could not see how Jesus’ answer was an answer. Here is what I got:

There are situations that are daunting and we know for a fact that we do not stand a chance against them. There is no lever that can be pulled to make things work in our favor and there is no one who can be influenced through natural means to work on our behalf. If we even stepped into those places we risk leaving in shame because of the intense disgrace or losing our lives because of the hate that we recieve. They wanted to stone Jesus. They wanted to stone him. Jesus was destined to be sacrificed but they wanted to stone him before his destined time. He was walking into a situation where his life was at risk and a to do list filled with missions from God the father that had to be completed. Irrespective of that God wants me to glow in the dark. “You MUST GLOW IN THE DARK”. Jesus said a man can walk in the day because of the light of the world but at night he can not if he does not have that light in himself. If you do not have light within you then expect to fail, but if you have accepted the free gift of Jesus as your Lord and Savior and have put your confidence in him then you will GLOW IN THE DARK.

God wanted to break me to open me up to reality of him. So that he could weave through all my faulty thought processes and reveal the true nature of himself to me. God literally broke me and the process was not easy, but I am better today with my Jesus then I was yesterday with a bad view of who Jesus was.
If you doubt the reality of Jesus and that he is the son of God and you wonder if he is as people say ask God to to reveal him to you.
Say “The God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Jesus. who are you to me?”

 

Dialogue On Suicide| Jesus & Ope

I gave God a million reasons why he should take my life. I scripted it out in lettering that was bold and made it simplistic enough so that it would not be misunderstood. I told him of how at this point in the journey I should have been growing from one glory into another and yet I managed to move effortlessly through the many layers of failure and found my self at the doorstep of suicide. As I searched through google looking for various methods on how to off myself he made me a coward before every option. My heart ached in ways that I never had felt before and I just could not understand where I was suppose to go with these emotions. He quickly reminded of patients I met in recovery during my shifts at work. There was Rosa a lady that jumped off a bridge and survived only to still be overwhelmed by the spirit of heaviness, the man who shot himself in the jaw, the women who found release in drugs and couldn’t even get a high off of the drugs anymore…she just suffered daily. He said “if you try it you will not be lucky…I know you think that pushing yourself to brink may possibly bring my attention to your matter but what hope is there for the dead.” I then said maybe I will head out into the world to find love between the thighs of men and release within the comfort of alcohol, prescribed medications and those not prescribed. Anything at all just to not feel this.  And I have never seen my God before but am oh so familiar with his presence. He took his eyes and looked at me and said “I have taught you time and time again that fulfilling the desires of the flesh in order to mask pain only intensifies it.” I really tried to reason with Jesus about this but the words ‘Sufficient Grace” echoed in my mind.

And so today I am giving up asking God to take my life so that I may dwell in sufficient grace. A land where the storms can rage within me, but not over come me. A land where I can be condemned of my past and current failures yet be promised a future. A land where I can be unloved and unwanted and yet still be enough. A land where I can be depressed, but not forever. A land where I can go to sleep heart broken yet intact.  A land where it is Me and Jesus sitting upon the rock of ages planning tomorrow because at the end of it all the pain is all about the glory that is coming.

-Opensky| Moirin.Nwoss