Sometimes when things are going bad we try to salvage the remains. We try and coax God with our tears and cries of distress to come and help us. If God isn’t in our vocabulary then we try and find a means to cope with the pain. We beg him(or the universe or the worldor whatever you believe in) to hear us and meanwhile our heart breaks with each passing day that we do not get an answer immediately. Some of us take this silence and say that God and Jesus are not real because he could not possibly save us or our life situations. Those who remain believing may adopt a mindset where we know he exist but can not accept that he is all powerful. I am learning that being broken is not meant to be an easy process. I use to go through this life thinking that a series of events would either add up to one outcome. I was creating my own recipe for how life should work and to be quite frank life felt like it was a game I could control. When I lost one life I had nine left and if I lost all of them I could reset the entire game and start over with nine more lives. I am faced with this bitter truth that if I must suffer in this world because of Christ the suffering will be real. There will be opportunities and people of which I cherish the most that will leave, die, disappoint and break me down into pieces. I will look at circumstances and watch them crumble before my very eyes and that is the only time I will discover that I am helpless. This helplessness opens me up to a level of humilty that I can not achieve when my game plan is working.
You know I have slept in my brokeness wondering every single day where to go and how to start anew. I have ruminated over my past mistakes and have had flashbacks of all the terrible things I’ve done while trying to put the pieces back together. And when I though things could not get worse I have spent so much time being taunted by thoughts that discredited my worth and made me question how God could love someone like me. And to it all I have decided to proclaim that Jesus died on the cross for my sins and I too must carry my own cross with him. If people will look at me crucify him he will one day look at me and use me to glorify his name. I love how apostle paul said to glory in weaknesses and weaknesses alone. Those weaknesses then are used to glorify the name of God because all the areas of lack are filled with his strength.
I have a lot of bad situations but I declare that none of them are bad because I have this beautiful man named Jesus and he is better then any terrible situation I will every encounter. An inkling of doubt may grow in my heart. My mind may flash back to that scary situation and I will open my lips
nd say Hossanah to the Son of David- Jesus Christ the Lord of Lord.
I looked at this scripture from John 11 :8-10 when Lazarus had died:
“8His disciples say unto him, Master, the Jews of late sought to stone thee; and goest thou thither again? 9Jesus answered, Are there not twelve hours in the day? If any man walk in the day, he stumbleth not, because he seeth the light of this world. 10But if a man walk in the night, he stumbleth, because there is no light in him.”
How do you approach an environment or situation that is dead and proceed to bring it back to life?
To be honest when I read this I was like God you have come again with your parables. The thing was I could understand the question but could not see how Jesus’ answer was an answer. Here is what I got:
There are situations that are daunting and we know for a fact that we do not stand a chance against them. There is no lever that can be pulled to make things work in our favor and there is no one who can be influenced through natural means to work on our behalf. If we even stepped into those places we risk leaving in shame because of the intense disgrace or losing our lives because of the hate that we recieve. They wanted to stone Jesus. They wanted to stone him. Jesus was destined to be sacrificed but they wanted to stone him before his destined time. He was walking into a situation where his life was at risk and a to do list filled with missions from God the father that had to be completed. Irrespective of that God wants me to glow in the dark. “You MUST GLOW IN THE DARK”. Jesus said a man can walk in the day because of the light of the world but at night he can not if he does not have that light in himself. If you do not have light within you then expect to fail, but if you have accepted the free gift of Jesus as your Lord and Savior and have put your confidence in him then you will GLOW IN THE DARK.
God wanted to break me to open me up to reality of him. So that he could weave through all my faulty thought processes and reveal the true nature of himself to me. God literally broke me and the process was not easy, but I am better today with my Jesus then I was yesterday with a bad view of who Jesus was.
If you doubt the reality of Jesus and that he is the son of God and you wonder if he is as people say ask God to to reveal him to you.
Say “The God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Jesus. who are you to me?”